Ugh more snow!!

And it's snowing again , it's I really coming down out there, the news said 5- 6 inches maybe! I have to laugh because I don't know why I am surprised lol it sure ain't the city up up here, even though they have got as much snnow downstate as we have this year. I don't really mind I think the snow is beautiful . I just don't like it on the roads and when it turns icy. The ice makes it difficult to get up and down my ramp in my wheelchair, even with salt it don't really help. Ice on the roads scares the shit out of me and I just assume not go anywhere at all. Now I know why bears hibernate in the winter. I am a home body I like being at home, I am the type of person if you wanna hang out then come to my house, I don't mind company at all. But I think I'm getting just a tad bit of cabin fever. I like my monthly shopping trips lol I recently went down state to pick up my daughter she was staying with her gram over the holiday break. My plan was to stay all weekend but had to cut it short and leave Saturday afternoon cuz the snow storm was coming. We made it home safe and missed all the bad weather thank goodness. The next day I didn't think we had got hit that bad up here so I decide I'm going to go the 20 miles to Mt Pleasant to go to Walmart and Sams club. Well I made it about 10 miles down the freeway to the next city and was freaking out he whole way, the roads were horrible , I got off the freeway and took the back way home so 20 miles round trip later it had been almost 2 hours, I could only go 10 15 miles per hour. I miss my envoy with 4 wheel drive, I wouldn't have went any faster but if I did end up off the road I know I would have been able to get out of a sticky situation. Don't get me wrong I love my sexy black Chrysler but she don't love the bad roads lol. Like I said I'm not surprised about the snow it was actually something I was looking forward to. The first time I ever came up here with my friends to visit, it was in the winter, I was in awe of the snow, it wasn't all black and dirty like it gets downstate from the traffic. People were on their roofs shoveling that was a site to see lol. We spent the night at my friends in laws and they lived kinda out in the woods. When I woke up in the morning ( I was sleeping on the couch), I sat up looked out the window and I was absolutely mesmerized !!!! It was like something on a Christmas card a winter wonderland, there were snow covered pine trees all over , a pretty lil frozen pond out front, sparking iceicles and it was lightly snowing. I just sat there for what seemed like at least an hour, it was quiet and peaceful, so relaxing. Well everyone else in the house started to wake and the day started. Later my fri end and I were talking and I brought up how I had been sitting just enjoy ingot he scenery, and she had been in the bedroom looking out the window doing the same thing as me. I said that day that I was gonna live up here one day, well here I am snowed in lol I think we will be investing in snowmobiles before next winter, they would be a blast! Don't get me wrong I miss being downstate in the city, there a lot easier and more convienatly access to things and I can't say I will stay here forever , I never know when my other personality ( I'm a Gemini ) might pop in and say fuck this shit we are out lol ! Plus my momma is down there so I go as often as possiable . Well there has already been so much schooled cancelled everywhere up here I don't know if it will be a snow day tommorow or not. Downstate if it's 3 inches they usually call a snow day but not up here, I'm not sure with 5 inches if they will close or not. My daughter always says the bus driver can't drive so it makes me a nervous wreck the thought of her on that bus if it's bad out, so we will see she might be haveing to get drove by us the next couple days. Excuse the typos I have know idea why it's giving me such a hard time editing, I click were I want to edit or spell check and the curser ends up somewhere totally different then I can't get it to move, it's like the damn thing has a mind of its own ugh!

Day n night

I love my son and daughter. Grace is doing so good in school she has lots of friends and seems to actually like it now. I remember my freshman year in school. While I have never been a fan of school, I came home on the first day of kindergarten and too my mom " it's ok but I don't think I will go everyday.." Lol and I never did! But if I had to pick a time at school from what I can remember freshman years would be my favorite. Anyways back to to Grace... I hope she continues to enjoy school. I feel bad because she has had to change schools so many times, but then again she is a social butterfly and has friends all over the map! She is a smart cookie though and she is like me makes the best of any situation, she is smarter then me in many ways ( the lil shit) she has way more street smarts or world knowledge or whatever then I did when I was her age. I have always said she is an old soul. I know she will comin tie to flourish and really make herself something one day. My son Coty he is a whole different breed of kid! Well he's not a kid no more :( he is a grown ass man, he will be 19 this year... I was 19 when I had him omg I feel old! He has always been a good kid , very rarely would I really have to scold him for anything. Well some of the few things that do I have to look back and laugh. For example I woke up about 4 am one day, Coty was 4 or 5 and he was in the living room, I asked him what is he doing. I don't recall him answering but he was playing with our birds, one was o it flying around and the other was in his pocket.... Yup I said pocket lol. But he really was just playing he loves animals, he always had some random rotten or bug or whatever caught outside, when he was like 12 he would wake me up at the break of dawn on the weekends to let me know he was going snake hunting lol. We had a lil tiny piece of wooded area and pond by us and that's were he went . He is still an animal lover he currently has 4 snakes as pets . I say he's a different breed of kid because, he really is. 99 percent of the kids his age are a mess, partying, drugs, haveing baby's, already been arrested a few times, the list goes on. Coty has done none of that. He is so chill, he likes hanging at home. I'm not trying to make it sound like he is some sort of hermit or something, he likes going places as a family when we do stuff, I'm glad my son likes hanging with us. He has friends don't get me wrong, Coty is very likeable, people enjoy his company he doesn't give anyone any reason not to like him. Don't let his big teddy bear ass fool ya, I feel sorry for that first person that crosses the line with him, I can see him opening a can of whoop ass on someone like no other, he is as strong as a damn ox. I have always said how strong my husband is and Coty is way stronger! He might live at home till he's forty but that's ok lol like I said people like Coty he is fun to hang out with and actually when he gets going he is fucking hilarious he is always cracking us up over something. Well I love both my kids so much with all my heart on soul, I have no idea what I would do with out them!!!! *again a side note I'm haveing a hard time editing for some reason so excuse the typos...

Happy Tears

I have shed alot of tears over the last couple months over various things that may have been effecting me in one way or another. i am not usually a cry baby ever but the last few months it seemed as thow the tears came easily. Crying doesnt always have to be a bad thing. Today I have shed some tears, but not over anything that is effecting me in anything way other then love. They were tears of joy; I am surrounded by amazing people. My family.... I have a husband that has such a good heart he is helping a complete stranger have just a little bit of an easier life this winter. Him and I have had our differance and i wanna punch his lights out sometimes but he is a good man and has so much love to give. I have a 17 year old son that is still his mommas boy, he helps take care of me and waits on me hand and foot if he needs to , with no complaints, most 17 year olds only give a shit about their friends and partying. I have a 13 year old daughter that is more mature and responsable then most 30 year olds I know, she is your typical girly girl with her hair and make up and clothes and shoes and the mall OMG lol But thats one of the reasons I adore her. She like her father has a heart of gold and would bend over backwords for anyone, also like her brother she helps to take care of her momma and has become a very good cook in the process. I will brag all day about my family and I am sure complain too LOL I have a group of Ya -Ya's (aka friends) that are the most Loving, understanding, and giving people I have ever known. Then I have all these extended family members and friends that I dont get to see very often, but I know they are out there and the love is there no matter how near or far away. What more could I ask for. Everyday shoukd bring a new reason to be happy and so happy that it can bring a tear to your eye Look for it, it is there! Reminds me of a quote by a very wise man. Prof. A. Dumbledore, “ happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”

Coty

Today we are having a Birthday Party for my son Coty. He is turning 17! I am really having a hard time wrapping my head around this...my baby is 17, where the hell did the last 17 years go, serioulsy someone please tell me?????

I remember The days surrounding his birth like they were yesterday (just dont ask me what actually happened yesterday cuz that I dont remember(lol). The day before I went into full blown labor I new it was gonna happen any second. I had been having braxton hicks contractions all day, everywheere we went my husband brought a towel for under my butt incase my water broke. We were telling family and friends I was in labor. The next day that I actaully went into full blown labor was a Sunday morning, it was Mothers Day. I woke up to use the bathroom and get ready for the day. As soon as I sat up in bed, gush my water had broke or so I thought. My mother made me eat a quik breakfast before we left for the hospital knowing they wouldnt feed me untill after I gave birth. Once at the hospital they wanted to "check' me and come to find out my water wasnt actuall broke it was just my mucus plug. After walking around for an hour or so my water did actually break on its own. That was like opening a flood gate, I had ALOT of water!! Then in bed hooked to all kinds of wires is how I spent the remainder of the day. At some point during the day I was transferred to a very nice labor and delivery room it was very cozy and had plenty of room for all my visitors. My labor was thankfully very smooth. I was having good contractions but no pain. The Dr's and nurses kept asking in amazement was I sure i didnt need anything for pain. The kept saying 'wow your still smileing". Around dinner time the nurse brought in a beutiful dinner, I was starved and then I find out its not for me I cant have it! Daddy enjoyed it , jerk lol. I was still feeling pretty good going into the evening, I was dialated to a 6 only and they started giving me patosin to get me going faster. That was about the same time my sister scared me into getting an epidural. I am glad i did because the pain did start to come, boiy did it! Within a very short time of getting the patoson and epidural I started to feel the pressure and need to push. I told the nurse to please check and she said "no way i just did I am sure it hasnt changed", well she was wrong I was fully efaced and ready to push! At this point it got kinda crazy. The nurse and intern had me pushing pushing pushing and I was getting wore out fast. Plus I felt like i was on fire down below. I didnt know at the time but come to find out later, the reason for the "burning" was becasue of "ripping". I had my mom on one leg and my hubby holding the other leg. My sister was standing by my head. I wasnt suppossed to have that many people in there but we got away with it. After what seemed like forever and the hardest thing I ever had to do, he was out. They had to getting him going he wasnt breathing as good as they wanted him to, NICU had to come in put a tube down his throat and clear him up. in the meantime i am in screaming miserable pain getting sewed up from stem to stern! Finally i got to hold my precious baby boy. It was the most amazing thing ever! He was 9 pounds 10 ounces and 21 inches long born at 9 ish at night. Back then they still kept the babys in the nursery. So off he went and I got to get showered and cleaned up and settled in my room. They brought him to me one more time that night. My mom and hubby went out for a celebration beer and brought me back McDonalds. The next day at the hospital was busy busy busy. Coty was brought to me bright and early for feeding. I tried the breast feeding thing but it just wasnt working for me. There were all kinds of classes available. But I choose not to take any. I was perfectly content spending time alone with my baby in between having family and friends come to see him.

I could go on and on about my son. He has been such a joy and still is. I have so many stories about him. He was very sick when he was a baby and that was very scary, but we got through it and he was ok. He was always a quiet kid and he still is. He can be a comedian though really and often has us cracking up. He has always loved his animals, weather it was a hamster he was putting in a tonka truck and crashing it, or a bird in his pocket or a dog he thought would like to have a "fun ride" via hanging it from its leash around the swingset! He is mommas boy even if he wouldnt admit it. I have been told how much he looks like me, but I see his dad in him too.

I still cant beleive 17 years have passed!! I just dont know how I am ever gonna grasp it, and when 30 years have passed I still wont have been able to grasp it. Our babys grow up so fast.

He will always be my baby!

I love both my kids soooo much!!

Happy music

Music helps alot with your mood and can be very uplifting, when your feeling down it can help (and certainly cant hurt so its worth a try)to play some "happy" music. So an idea is to put together some playlist of your favs that you know will help get rid of your gloom. Songs that make you smile and shake your tail feather LOL!

Inspired by my Ya-Ya to have a seasonal playlist and since spring has sprung here is my spring and maybe into summer playlist(some newer some oldies but goodies):













I am haveing a creative block LOL but I am sure there will more to come!!

Whats to come...

First lley me just say how happy I am to be here. I tried logining in to post in the blog and it told me it had been deleted. I gut sank, I think I almost cried. But for some reason now hours later its back and here I am . Maaybe a sign I should be paying attention to my blog more often LOL... So with that said;

Last night while I was searching channels for something to fall asleep to ( yes I need something on to fall alseep to ) I put on pbs i figure something nice and sleepy will be on public televsion. And hey I am not knocking Public TV I grew up a child of pre cable so I was watching it alot as a kid. Anyhow it was not so bad Dr. Wayne Dyer was on. I have been following him for a while now. He teaches alot about the power of posative thinking etc. Hes a lil more focused on Faith & God more then some of the teachers from 'The Secret', but still I like him alot. He has alot of good messages and storys of people over coming lifes problems by thier thoughts and actions. Funny thing I found a complete series of his,on cassette tape in my mothers garage when I moved in recently. I havent listend to it yet but plan on it soon. I find that by talking about The power of the universe and posativeness helps me to stay focused on it and on a good track. Its easy to get off track and find yourself in a pit of misery. But you have to do what you can to pull yourself out and stay out. The lil things count y9ou will see. Ok sorry i got off track LOL and back to watching Dr. Dyer last night. I caught some cool things he was saying as I was faling off to sleep and I decided to record the show so I can watch it and take notes. I want to go through some of my other books and shows about The Secret & such and taking notes. So 'Whats to come'...I plan on trying to get alot more blogging done (keeping fingers crossed). You can look for blogs about authurs and teachers, testimonials, ideas, projects, all focused on happy posative everything. Dont be suprised if I throw some randomness in here and there when I get the nitch.

For now I am off to find something to fall alseep to tonight hopefully equally as inspiring as last night:)Hapy Blogging

It's been awhile!!

It's been awhile since I have had regular Internet use, so I thought I would check in. It will be brief becuz I'm on my daughters iPod n it's just a pain to type a lot but here's some good stuff that has happen and I truly believe wouldn't have happened without out using the power of positive thoughts! This past year has been a ill trying to say the least. And I have had to work very hard to keep reminding my self to "think happy". So as wit many people $ is always a big issue, and as hard as I try not to worry it happens . So I keep replacing the "worry" thoughts with "everything is ok n I will have all that I need". And sure enough it becomes the truth. I was on the edge of freaking out over giving my kids a good Xmas, and had a mental battle to stay positive. Posativity always always prevails! Not only did I get what I needed to give them a good Xmas I got extra to give them a great Xmas! Which I'm so greatful for. And remember gratitude is a big part of the secret so never leave it out. Visualization helps so much to. See what u want n feel how good it will be to have it. Don't think about how it will happen just see the end resolution and be greatful knowing it will come. Posativity visualization feeling it and being grateful.... With that recipe you can't go wrong!!! Here's to a great new year! And many many more good news post!

Soooo long...

Its been so long since I have been here please forgive me! Really i am more mad at myself for getting away from the secret. I feel like a deflated balloon with out it!! The secret gives me life and hope and happiness but I MUST use it ugh! So I am on the happy train and going to try to keep on going!! The power to have anything and everything you want is there you just have to grasp it and not give up. A good friend once said God will never give you more then you can handle. And I believe that. I also believe that everything happens for a reason and I say it allll the time. Am I just trying to convince myself here maybe I am but hey whatever it takes right?
There has been so many things I have been meaning to blog about they get in my head and then stored and not recorded ugh!
For example for the longest time I have been wanting to blog about the power and proof of vision boards! I know that I have talked about them before but wanted to give a prime example. About 2 years ago I held a workshop for Pagan Center about creating vision boards. My daughter Grace participated. She put lots of cute lil things and included a dog, a Little white Maltese (kinda looked like the dog for the Cesar dog food commercials). At the time I said OK that's fine but you just keep on dreaming because we cant even have a dog were we live etc etc But she kept her vision board on her wall in her room! And wouldn't you know but a year later we were moving and what did she get for her birthday but a dog exactly like the one on her vision board!! And it really wasnt planned (well kinda) but when her grandmother took her around to animal shelters with just finding a small dog in mind my daughter had totally forgot about the vision board dog. And when I saw him I reminded her and it blew her mind (and mine to actually lol). Vision Boards are just one tool you can use to focus on your dreams. I like to keep pictures on my computer and when my screen is in save mode there is a picture reel of all my visions that plays!
Feelings.... I have come to realize that feelings play a big part in your life, if you feel like something bad is going to happen then that's what is going to happen. To be happy you have to feel happy. Sometime this may require you to fake it!! Really no kidding! Fake it. Walk around like you are on top of the world smiling and laughing and seeming to have not a care in the world. The universe will have no choice but to respond and you wont have to fake it for long you will be happy and care free. It might not happen overnight but it will happen.
Thoughts......Don't doubt it. Doubt is evil and should be squashed at first sight! A positive thought is a million times more powerful then a negative thought. Sooo... When hoping for something to happen like a raise, a new job, a new car, new house, pregnancy, marriage etc etc etc. See it feel it and KNOW it! Anytime that evil little doubt sneaks in stop it and replace it with a good thought and feel and vision. For example: Your thoughts are ~~" Oh I hope I get that new job" Doubt sneaks in ~~ ... "oh I'm not gonna get it they will probably give it to someone else"... Squash the doubt and replace it ~~ " I have the new job I want it is mine!!" See yourself at the new job with a big smile and keep telling yourself over and over till you have your self convinced!!!
Everyone has bad days and negative thoughts. Just watching the news is depressing and it seems like no matter who you talk to they have something to complain about. Its really hard to get rid of negativity so it is a very self motivated thing to keep up with. You have to do it yourself no one and no one thing can make you completely happy if you focus on all the bad of life. And when you get in a funk it sometimes can be very hard to get out of it. Sometimes even impossible with out medication! But whatever it takes to be happy is a must to go out there and do it, with happiness comes health and a long prosperous life! So besides medication .... when you are having one of those days were it just seems as everything is going Wrong and you are in a funk and cant get out of it theres are way to turn the tables! Music is always good for the mood, if you are in the car and hear a song you love and it makes you smile and bop your head, turn it up and jam out! Its almost a guarantee you will get in at least a lil bit better mood. I have a list of songs in my head that I know will instantly uplift my spirits and a playlist of recommended songs. Recently there is a new song out by Katy Perry called Firework. I tried to embed it here hopefully it works. I LOVE this song!!! She says every Hurricane has its Rainbow and omg that soo true!! Or maybe your at work or home and just want to scream at the top of your longs out of pure frustration. I don't actually recommending screaming LOL you will have people calling 911 thinking Godzilla just walked in or something. Try to just take a private moment (in the bathroom or deserted hallway)and meditate for a few minutes taking deep cleansing breaths and saying to yourself "we are starting over and the rest of the day will be great" shake of the bad vibes and smile. Then go on with your day not giving a second thought to the funkiness of the morning!
Even when the worst of things seem to be happening try to always focus that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and something good will come out of it.
No matter how bad something seems you can always find something that is god in it. And be thankful for that little bit of good no matter how little it is. Because with gratitude comes more things to be thankful for. I dont care who you are or what rough patch you are going through you have something to be thankful for! Everyday when you wake up you have the air you breath to be thankful for. Take a moment everyday to think of the things you are thankful for... 1. I am breathing 2. I have a job to go to 3. I have family & friends that love me 4. I have freedom the list goes on and on and on and on. Its never ending and the list can be growing everyday, every second. The more you are thankful the more things to be thankful for come. Its like a domino effect and is undoubtedly guaranteed!!!

Another quote from the song mentioned above " maybe a reason why all the doors are closed, so you can open one that leads you to the perfect road"


So i have briefly gone over all the aspects of the poser a positive thinking now; Note to self.... GET USING IT DAMN IT!!!!!!!

R.I.P.

Awww the baby bunny died over night RIP lil miss lilly tibbz! She was very tiny and I was kinda afraid she wasnt going to make it, being a wild bunny and all, but Grace took very good care of her for the few days that we had her. And no we didnt feed her to the snake or cat LOL she is at rest peacefully. We are thankful for the time we had.

Hump Day

It has been a hard few days The Secret that i love so dearly has slipped away from me. I am not happy with myself over it. Time to get over the hump and love life again, I am so thankful for all my friends and family and everything that I have in my life and everything that I am going to have in my life.




People who live only for dessert, Kelly, very rarely enjoy the main course.

And sometimes a meal is like life.

Bon appétit,
The Universe

Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ®
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Coffee, tea, or me, Kelly?

Keeping fingers crossed

I know this has nothing to do with the Halloween theme I have been following but I am feeling like I have neglected The Secret! SO I just wanted to throw some random things out there :)
A while back I posted I was looking to get some extra money from the IRS and I printed myself out a check from the universe to help speed it along, and at the time I was wanting it to come ASAP, and I have been waiting waiting waiting, every week I find a new reason why I need the check to come and how I am going to use it. Well I found out yesterday that it is on its way at the end of the month! WOOT WOOT! Now this brings me to my next point..... I ALWAYS say everything happens for a reason and the universe will give us what we ask for but sometimes gives it to us in an unexpected way or it waits till just the right time. Well if I had got my check a month or more ago it would be LONNNNNG gone! Which brings me to yet another point..... Back when I first moved in to my work site property I said that one day it would be wonderful to be accepted as an employee unit and not have to pay rent, well that happened a while ago, and has been a blessing and I am thankful for it everyday! Now in the mean time I have thought how nice it would be to have a big three bedroom and I have been picturing it happening, well it just so happens that an opportunity has arose that I might be able to get the big 3 bedroom I want, and I will find out Tomorrow if the Board approves it, I am confident they will, I already am making moving plans painting packing ect. But the money I will be getting from the IRS is coming just perfectly in time to help with the expense of moving, now I just find it wonderfully awesome how the universe has played this all out for me, I asked for it I saw it and believed it would happen and I have been and will always be thankful for the wonderful things I already have been blessed with. And that's how it works simple as that!!!

On a side note: A friend of mine teenager was kinda going threw some emotional issues the other day and what teenagers dont right! So anyways she was talking to him and I decided to throw in my 2 cents about being positive ect. and I was brief but made valid points and honest to go he said " wow I feel like you just taught me the secret to life" And then I smiled and said "I did!" No go forth and be prosperous my child hehehe no I didnt add that last part but it would have been funny hehehe Anyways for me to help in just that lil itty bitty way makes me feel so good and maybe just those few words will make a big difference or even a lil difference its all good, so my point is dont be afraid to talk about and spread the word about being a happy positive person, like attracts like and happiness and good news create more happiness and good news!!

Back to School

This week all the kiddies go back to school, including mine. Last year didnt go exactly how I would have liked for it to go for my son (the 14 year old) but I dont want to talk about the negative aspect of it, that would be completely opposite of what I preach. So Here's to this year going well and my kids excelling beyond our expectations. My son has been through it once so his second time around should be a breeze! My daughter (the 10 year old) enjoys school and is so excited this year because she gets to be safety, I remember when I was a kid and I wanted to be a safety all the time but never got the chance so I am also excited for her. She dont even mind having to go to school early. This year will have to be a lil more structured in order for them to meet their goals. i was planning on enrolling my son in a charter school but they dont have room at the time, which he didnt want to do because of the whole uniform thing but they have art and so many other extra curricular things to choose from I think it would be so much better for him, but everything happens for a reason so we are looking to the bright side and he is happy he is going to the same school as last year. I never liked school as a kid and I always try to talk positive about school with the kids so not to discourage them. I think we have most of our school shopping done to... $400 later LOL

Fall is coming

I know we are going to get a few hot days still as its only the end of August, but the last few days and the crisp air have made me think of fall and Halloween and all that good stuff that comes with my favorite time of year!! Its usually when I am at my best because it makes me just feel so good and have tons and tons of Happy Thoughts!! I have even started planning a Halloween Party for the kiddies!! Sorry summer lovers I am not sad to see it end!

p.s. Blog things to look forward too..... I am going to do a 31 days of Halloween starting Oct. 1st!! I am so excited about this, every year I do it but this will be my first year blogging about it!

I am Back

I feel like I have strayed away. Not so much from using the law of attraction; as you cant really get away from it, it is always in play, but from practicing what I preach, I guess. I have found myself in a slump and I am so over it LOL. It took me a miute to realize it. Then I found myself laying in bed worried and complaining to myself about things in general. I stopped and thought "self STOP! This is exactly what you should not be doing"! Yes, I often have conversations with myself, call me crazy I dont care its therapeutic. Anyhow my cousins man is in jail over some minor stuff but its one of those situations where he has more time then money and has to wait it out. In his letters to her he sounded kinda down and out and I thought well let me tell him about The Secret and maybe even if he takes just a lil bit from it, it will lift his spirits and help him to pass his time in there. Well it ended up to be a 7 page letter. I dont even know if he wanted the knowledge at the time but I gave it to him anyways LOL. I got a letter back from him saying how "deep" it was and thanking me over and over. In light of all this, I have come to realize; that if I am not talking about it I dont feel like I am using it to the best of my ability and maybe not getting as much out of it as I can. I think that I am 'supposed' to spread the word?? I was actually thinking of teaching a class about using the law of attraction at ConVocation which is coming up in February, but I am not the greatest public speaker and I just am not that confident in teaching about The Secret. I also dont want to cross any copyrighted laws and all that stuff either. I would just be referencing The Secret and mostly speaking of my own and others experiences, its a big decision so I really have to think about it. Maybe I will hold a few small workshops with my group Pagan Center this year and be ready for next years Convocation? Anyways my point is that the slump was my own fault I attracted and allowed it into my life just like we do everything. I have moved on and over it everything is going to be ok. That is my motto for the weekend. I will not stray from my blog anymore even if it helps 1 person out of a gazillion then it is worth it. Spreading the word and talking about positivity can only bring more of the same it feels good. So I am here to stay peoples you are not getting rid of me LOL

Blah!

Sorry it has been so quite around here lately, I was on vacation and then just kinda in a blah mood and havent been very inspired to blog about much really. I think though in order to be inspired you need to be inspiring too, And other then talking about the law of attraction I am not sure how to be inspiring. I have a lot of hang ups and issues my life is far from perfect (whos is) but I really try not to focus on those things and rather focus on the things that I can do to fix the hang ups and imperfections. And its not always that easy but try try try and eventually its bound to go your way. I think lately I have lost hold of some of the things that The Secret has taught me. Maybe I need to go back and read some of my own post LOL. Gratitude usually comes easy for me, I am a very thankful person and know how blessed I am for the people and the things in my life. But the visioning and feeling what I want has been hard for me lately I realize I have total control of it and have the ability to regain it and I know that I will. I have my daily notes from the universe still to help, that I love so much - Thanks to Mike Dooley! My ya ya has an awesome movie projector that almost is like haveing our own personal drive in so maybe I can work something out with her an have another screening of THE SECRET sometime early fall. I like to watch it every now and everytime I learn something new or something else sticks with me that I might not have noticed before. Well I will be back with more ramblings I am sure so check back with me soon. Hugs and Kisses.

And in the immortal words of Albus Dumbledore
" It is only the darkest of times when one forgets to turn on the lights"

WUV TWU WUV

One of my favorite movies of all time is The Princess Bride, Buttercup & Wesley have such a perfect romance and even in the face of much adversary, love conquers all. Some wonder does such true love really exist and how do they get it. And the law of attraction does play some role in having it. Most people including me have been jaded in some way or another and that often makes it difficult to accept true love or any kind of love at all. Which you have to be willing to accept that you can have the love you truly want if you accept it, & get over and not dwell on the past negative relationship.Another favorite movie of mine is The Wedding Date and the "date" tells the girl who hires him that "every woman has the exact relationship that she wants" in which she looks at him like he is crazy and argues the point, but by the end of the movie she does finally get what he means.
According to the law of Attraction everything we bring into our lives is there because we brought it there. So if you are in a good, bad, perfect, abusive ect. relationship it is because that is were you want to be, that is what you have accepted, and if you want to change it then you are the only one that can do it. If you don't want to change it, because its all good, then congrats & keep on doing what you are doing, it must be working. If you are not in a relationship, and you want to be, you may want to take some time to reflect on what you have been doing, and not just your actions, your thoughts, your feelings, what are you focusing on. Are you focusing on what you want your partner to be or not to be. You need to focus on what you want not what you don't want. Take time to meditate even just for 2 minutes and let yourself be overwhelmed with the feeling of LOVE, pretend you just met your Prince or Princess and they have swept you off your feet and nothing in the world can bring you down, really feel it a see it, close your eyes and visualize your perfect wedding or romantic get away and smile because you feel so great all over!! Don'T worry about a specific person or who it will be or how it will be. Trust in the universe to bring you the person that was put on this earth for you and you WILL have your happily ever after!

Off topic kinda

So this is off topic kinda, I just want to use it to point out how the media and others focus so much on the negative things in life rather then point out the good things people do and be gratful for it.

Ed Freeman
You're an 19 year old kid. You're critically wounded, and dying in the jungle in the Ia Drang Valley , 11-14-1965, LZ X-ray, Vietnam Your infantry unit is outnumbered 8 - 1, and the enemy fire is so intense, from 100 or 200 yards away, that your own Infantry Commander has ordered the MediVac helicopters to stop coming in.
You're lying there, listening to the enemy machine guns, and you know you're not getting out. Your family is 1/2 way around the world, 12,000 miles away, and you'll never see them again. As the world starts to fade in and out, you know this is the day.
Then, over the machine gun noise, you faintly hear that sound of a helicopter, and you look up to see an un-armed Huey, but it doesn't seem real, because no Medi-Vac markings are on it.
Ed Freeman is coming for you. He's not Medi-Vac, so it's not his job, but he's flying his Huey down into the machine gun fire, after the Medi-Vacs were ordered not to come.
He's coming anyway.
And he drops it in, and sits there in the machine gun fire, as they load 2 or 3 of you on board.
Then he flies you up and out through the gunfire, to the Doctors and Nurses.
And, he kept coming back.... 13 more times..... And took about 30 of you and your buddies out, who would never have gotten out.
Medal of Honor Recipient, Ed Freeman,died last Wednesday at the age of 80, in Boise, ID .....May God rest his soul.......
I bet you didn't hear about this hero's
passing, but we sure were told a whole
bunch about some Hip-Hop Coward
beating the crap out of his "girlfriend"

Medal of Honor Winner
Ed Freeman!



Shame on the American Media

Ramblings

When you sit back and really pay attention to the negativity in the world it really blows your mind at how much there actually is! I mean have you ever watched the evening news geesh! Maybe you might have one story out of the whole freaking hour that is positive and heart warming, the rest is, murder, fire, theft, scandal, and everything else bad under the sun. I used to watch the news everyday when I came home from work and sometimes even before I went to work, but I can hardly bring myself to watch it at all anymore!!

People come into my office everyday saying things like "its so bad out there, the economy is failing, everyone is loosing jobs ect". I just nod my head and agree, when really I want to say "STOP!!!" What is wrong with you people, ya its not the greatest right now but what kind of attitude do you have! By going on and on and on about it, is not going to make it any better!! Its like spreading disease. If you stop talking about how bad it is and say "Things are getting better or Things are going to be great, wonderful awesome", whatever adjective you want to use, as long as it has a positive impact. You never know what one little thing you say might do to totally change someone or somethings course of action.

If you come across someone who is having a bad day, week, month, or life, it might only take for you to say to them, that things are going to be OK. And that just might change their way of thinking. More then likely if they are really down and out its going to take a whole lot more then one lil comment, but its the idea and the possibility that matters. Its just as easy to spread happy thoughts like a disease as it is bad thoughts.

One lady said to me, "everyday I go to work and worry if I am going to have a job".... Ugh! well that's the first step for sure to end up losing the job. She said "do you feel the same way or are you secure at your company". I said "well you never know whats going to happen from one day to the next but I don't worry about it, I feel secure and I am thankful and happy everyday for my job and what I have."

Its so easy to let doubt and fear slip in. Its bound to happen, especially with all the negative surroundings. It helps to just keep reminding yourself of your happy thoughts and how great of a life you have. (and your life is great no matter what is going on damn it!) There are lots of lil things you can do as reminders or to just lift your spirits if you are feeling you are in a negative vibe. I like to use music and if I ever figure out how to post music on here I will post a happy play list LOL.

Remember One Positive thought is a millions times stronger then a negative thought!!