Day n night

I love my son and daughter. Grace is doing so good in school she has lots of friends and seems to actually like it now. I remember my freshman year in school. While I have never been a fan of school, I came home on the first day of kindergarten and too my mom " it's ok but I don't think I will go everyday.." Lol and I never did! But if I had to pick a time at school from what I can remember freshman years would be my favorite. Anyways back to to Grace... I hope she continues to enjoy school. I feel bad because she has had to change schools so many times, but then again she is a social butterfly and has friends all over the map! She is a smart cookie though and she is like me makes the best of any situation, she is smarter then me in many ways ( the lil shit) she has way more street smarts or world knowledge or whatever then I did when I was her age. I have always said she is an old soul. I know she will comin tie to flourish and really make herself something one day. My son Coty he is a whole different breed of kid! Well he's not a kid no more :( he is a grown ass man, he will be 19 this year... I was 19 when I had him omg I feel old! He has always been a good kid , very rarely would I really have to scold him for anything. Well some of the few things that do I have to look back and laugh. For example I woke up about 4 am one day, Coty was 4 or 5 and he was in the living room, I asked him what is he doing. I don't recall him answering but he was playing with our birds, one was o it flying around and the other was in his pocket.... Yup I said pocket lol. But he really was just playing he loves animals, he always had some random rotten or bug or whatever caught outside, when he was like 12 he would wake me up at the break of dawn on the weekends to let me know he was going snake hunting lol. We had a lil tiny piece of wooded area and pond by us and that's were he went . He is still an animal lover he currently has 4 snakes as pets . I say he's a different breed of kid because, he really is. 99 percent of the kids his age are a mess, partying, drugs, haveing baby's, already been arrested a few times, the list goes on. Coty has done none of that. He is so chill, he likes hanging at home. I'm not trying to make it sound like he is some sort of hermit or something, he likes going places as a family when we do stuff, I'm glad my son likes hanging with us. He has friends don't get me wrong, Coty is very likeable, people enjoy his company he doesn't give anyone any reason not to like him. Don't let his big teddy bear ass fool ya, I feel sorry for that first person that crosses the line with him, I can see him opening a can of whoop ass on someone like no other, he is as strong as a damn ox. I have always said how strong my husband is and Coty is way stronger! He might live at home till he's forty but that's ok lol like I said people like Coty he is fun to hang out with and actually when he gets going he is fucking hilarious he is always cracking us up over something. Well I love both my kids so much with all my heart on soul, I have no idea what I would do with out them!!!! *again a side note I'm haveing a hard time editing for some reason so excuse the typos...

Happy Tears

I have shed alot of tears over the last couple months over various things that may have been effecting me in one way or another. i am not usually a cry baby ever but the last few months it seemed as thow the tears came easily. Crying doesnt always have to be a bad thing. Today I have shed some tears, but not over anything that is effecting me in anything way other then love. They were tears of joy; I am surrounded by amazing people. My family.... I have a husband that has such a good heart he is helping a complete stranger have just a little bit of an easier life this winter. Him and I have had our differance and i wanna punch his lights out sometimes but he is a good man and has so much love to give. I have a 17 year old son that is still his mommas boy, he helps take care of me and waits on me hand and foot if he needs to , with no complaints, most 17 year olds only give a shit about their friends and partying. I have a 13 year old daughter that is more mature and responsable then most 30 year olds I know, she is your typical girly girl with her hair and make up and clothes and shoes and the mall OMG lol But thats one of the reasons I adore her. She like her father has a heart of gold and would bend over backwords for anyone, also like her brother she helps to take care of her momma and has become a very good cook in the process. I will brag all day about my family and I am sure complain too LOL I have a group of Ya -Ya's (aka friends) that are the most Loving, understanding, and giving people I have ever known. Then I have all these extended family members and friends that I dont get to see very often, but I know they are out there and the love is there no matter how near or far away. What more could I ask for. Everyday shoukd bring a new reason to be happy and so happy that it can bring a tear to your eye Look for it, it is there! Reminds me of a quote by a very wise man. Prof. A. Dumbledore, “ happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”

Gratitude journal 3

5 Things I am grateful for today 1. My daughter being a great cook 2. And extra $20 spot when not expected 3. The sound of rain 4. My comfy pillows & blanket 5. Sleeping in

Gratitude journal 1

Over the years of studying The Secret and the law of attraction, I have learned soooo much, and I have become a better person for it. I am not the same person I was 5 years ago in more ways then one. To really live the secret isnt easy, it takes practice,dedication and faith. It will always always always pay off! I have seen it work for myself and countless others around the world. It has helped me through alot of tuff times for sure! But thinking about all the aspects of The law of attraction, there is one thing that sticks out to be most important above all else. Gratitude. Gratitude creates abundance, happiness, and so much more. Gratitudde doesnt alllow you to be sad. Sadness is void of gratitude. Everyone has things to be thankful for no matter what. It can be from the very simplest of things to the most extavagant of things. When I am beginning to get stressed out about one thing or another I go to gratitude. Think about what you are thankful for already haveing or had someone, something or experiance. The next aspect I feel sticks out is thoughts become things, but I wont go into that this post. If you are being thankful you are probally thinking good thoughts so they go hand in hand. Oprah is big on gratitude and I guess for many years she has been keeping a gratitude journal. She faithfully writes at least 5 things in it everyday. She says, "it could be as simple as someone holding the door open for you". I want to keep a gratitude journal as well. So here it is lol the beginning of my gratitude journal. Now I cant devote myself to keeping it up everyday :) But i will try. i have tons of things to be grateful for, so I am sure it will come easy. i encourage everyone to try having a gratitude journal!!! Today is Sunday May 6th; 1. I am gratful my hubby did the shopping today, so I didnt have to. 2. I am so thankful for the kindness of others. 3. I am thankful for the cool breeze coming in my window. 4. I am gratful for an anxiety free day. 5. I am eternally gratful for my children. <3

Soooo long...

Its been so long since I have been here please forgive me! Really i am more mad at myself for getting away from the secret. I feel like a deflated balloon with out it!! The secret gives me life and hope and happiness but I MUST use it ugh! So I am on the happy train and going to try to keep on going!! The power to have anything and everything you want is there you just have to grasp it and not give up. A good friend once said God will never give you more then you can handle. And I believe that. I also believe that everything happens for a reason and I say it allll the time. Am I just trying to convince myself here maybe I am but hey whatever it takes right?
There has been so many things I have been meaning to blog about they get in my head and then stored and not recorded ugh!
For example for the longest time I have been wanting to blog about the power and proof of vision boards! I know that I have talked about them before but wanted to give a prime example. About 2 years ago I held a workshop for Pagan Center about creating vision boards. My daughter Grace participated. She put lots of cute lil things and included a dog, a Little white Maltese (kinda looked like the dog for the Cesar dog food commercials). At the time I said OK that's fine but you just keep on dreaming because we cant even have a dog were we live etc etc But she kept her vision board on her wall in her room! And wouldn't you know but a year later we were moving and what did she get for her birthday but a dog exactly like the one on her vision board!! And it really wasnt planned (well kinda) but when her grandmother took her around to animal shelters with just finding a small dog in mind my daughter had totally forgot about the vision board dog. And when I saw him I reminded her and it blew her mind (and mine to actually lol). Vision Boards are just one tool you can use to focus on your dreams. I like to keep pictures on my computer and when my screen is in save mode there is a picture reel of all my visions that plays!
Feelings.... I have come to realize that feelings play a big part in your life, if you feel like something bad is going to happen then that's what is going to happen. To be happy you have to feel happy. Sometime this may require you to fake it!! Really no kidding! Fake it. Walk around like you are on top of the world smiling and laughing and seeming to have not a care in the world. The universe will have no choice but to respond and you wont have to fake it for long you will be happy and care free. It might not happen overnight but it will happen.
Thoughts......Don't doubt it. Doubt is evil and should be squashed at first sight! A positive thought is a million times more powerful then a negative thought. Sooo... When hoping for something to happen like a raise, a new job, a new car, new house, pregnancy, marriage etc etc etc. See it feel it and KNOW it! Anytime that evil little doubt sneaks in stop it and replace it with a good thought and feel and vision. For example: Your thoughts are ~~" Oh I hope I get that new job" Doubt sneaks in ~~ ... "oh I'm not gonna get it they will probably give it to someone else"... Squash the doubt and replace it ~~ " I have the new job I want it is mine!!" See yourself at the new job with a big smile and keep telling yourself over and over till you have your self convinced!!!
Everyone has bad days and negative thoughts. Just watching the news is depressing and it seems like no matter who you talk to they have something to complain about. Its really hard to get rid of negativity so it is a very self motivated thing to keep up with. You have to do it yourself no one and no one thing can make you completely happy if you focus on all the bad of life. And when you get in a funk it sometimes can be very hard to get out of it. Sometimes even impossible with out medication! But whatever it takes to be happy is a must to go out there and do it, with happiness comes health and a long prosperous life! So besides medication .... when you are having one of those days were it just seems as everything is going Wrong and you are in a funk and cant get out of it theres are way to turn the tables! Music is always good for the mood, if you are in the car and hear a song you love and it makes you smile and bop your head, turn it up and jam out! Its almost a guarantee you will get in at least a lil bit better mood. I have a list of songs in my head that I know will instantly uplift my spirits and a playlist of recommended songs. Recently there is a new song out by Katy Perry called Firework. I tried to embed it here hopefully it works. I LOVE this song!!! She says every Hurricane has its Rainbow and omg that soo true!! Or maybe your at work or home and just want to scream at the top of your longs out of pure frustration. I don't actually recommending screaming LOL you will have people calling 911 thinking Godzilla just walked in or something. Try to just take a private moment (in the bathroom or deserted hallway)and meditate for a few minutes taking deep cleansing breaths and saying to yourself "we are starting over and the rest of the day will be great" shake of the bad vibes and smile. Then go on with your day not giving a second thought to the funkiness of the morning!
Even when the worst of things seem to be happening try to always focus that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and something good will come out of it.
No matter how bad something seems you can always find something that is god in it. And be thankful for that little bit of good no matter how little it is. Because with gratitude comes more things to be thankful for. I dont care who you are or what rough patch you are going through you have something to be thankful for! Everyday when you wake up you have the air you breath to be thankful for. Take a moment everyday to think of the things you are thankful for... 1. I am breathing 2. I have a job to go to 3. I have family & friends that love me 4. I have freedom the list goes on and on and on and on. Its never ending and the list can be growing everyday, every second. The more you are thankful the more things to be thankful for come. Its like a domino effect and is undoubtedly guaranteed!!!

Another quote from the song mentioned above " maybe a reason why all the doors are closed, so you can open one that leads you to the perfect road"


So i have briefly gone over all the aspects of the poser a positive thinking now; Note to self.... GET USING IT DAMN IT!!!!!!!

Grateful Wednesday

This is my kids when they were lil. They are what I am most grateful for in my life, over and above anything in the world. I am grateful they are growing up healthy and happy. I am grateful they are not some lying lil punk kids getting in trouble all the time (like so many kids today are). My son is quite and shy I wish he was a lil more outging but thats ok because its the quite ones you have to watch out for, he will be great one day and shine as bright as a star. For now I enjoy him being the mommas boy he is and will keep him hanging around being a kid for as long as I can. He just turned 15 and I thought ugh next year he will want a car and then teenagerdom will really start sinking in. I will need all my strength when that comes!
My daughter is out going and I dont worry about lil miss independant for a minute, I am grateful she is not to fast and chasing boys all over the neighborhood like some girls her age, she is my precious lil girl and I want to keep her that way for as long as I can. Girls are so much harder to raise then boys. She is going to be 11 & I am not looking forward to her becoming a preteen let alone a teen!


I am grateful for my husband, we have been together on and off since we were kids, I was 17 and he was 16 ( ya I went for the younger man LOL) We recently reconciled after being split up for a long time. We both needed to grow up some and he had some issues to sort out. We both have learned alot form each other and our familys(mainly mine)over the years. We love each other unconditionally, and have made things work against all odds. Our future is bright together forever I have my happy ever after.

R.I.P.

Awww the baby bunny died over night RIP lil miss lilly tibbz! She was very tiny and I was kinda afraid she wasnt going to make it, being a wild bunny and all, but Grace took very good care of her for the few days that we had her. And no we didnt feed her to the snake or cat LOL she is at rest peacefully. We are thankful for the time we had.

Grateful Wednesday

Today i am grateful for all the great lil creatures mother nature has given us to enjoy and share the earth with, here are few that are in my family....


This is the newest member of the family in which we share custody of with my coworker who found it orphaned we have yet to name hi/her :)


This is the eldest pet sibling Sprite, he is a typical spoiled fat house cat, who thinks he runs everything and everyone


This is my son Cotys pet Ball Python Yeti, he is boring just sleeps and eats, hmm kinda like Coty LOL


This is our Lion head bunny her name is Lola and she belongs to Grace but is equally spoiled by all LOL

Kids movie night

My kids are my life and I am so thankful for them everyday!! we had a movie night last week. Here are some of the highlights: we wathced "Paranormal Activity"

FIRST THE GIRLS DID THEIR NAILS LOL


POPCORN CHECK! READY,SET,START THE MOVIE


COTYS FAKES BEING SCARED


COTYS FOR REAL GETS SCARRED LMAO!


HE DOESNT WANT TO GET SCARED AGAIN


I AM SLEEPY AND READY FOR BED (IT WAS AFTER 2AM)

FRIDAY

I AM THANKFUL FOR MUSIC, I LOVE MUSIC IF YOU ARE FEELING DOWN IT CAN REALLY HELP TO CHEER YOU UP, I LOVE ALL KINDS OF MUSIC, EVERYTHING FROM MOZART TO OZZY OSBOURNE TO LIL WAYNE!! TURN IT UP AND DANCE LIKE NO ONE IS WATCHING!!!

THURSDAY

I AM THANKFUL FOR FAMILY, SOMETIMES YOU CANT LIVE WITH THEM BUT YOU DEFINATLY CANT LIVE WITH OUT THEM

WEDNESDAY

HUMP DAY!! I AM THANKFUL FOR MY JOB ! I AM ON VACATION THIS WEEK ITS NICE TO HAVE A BREAK BUT I AM THANKFUL TO HAVE SOMETHING THAT I ACTUALLY ENJOY DOING OH YA AND THE MONEY IS NICE TOO!

TUESDAY

I AM THANKFUL FOR LOVE I LOVE FALLING IN LOVE I LOVE BEING IN LOVE I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT LOVE!!

MONDAY

I AM THANKFUL TODAY FOR MONDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL WOOHOOO GO BEARS!

SUNDAY

I AM THANKFUL FOR SUNDAY FAMILY GATHERINGS AND WATCHING SOME FOOTBALL AND EATING GOOD FOOD!

VACATION

WOOOOOHOOOOO VACATION I AM ON VACATION I WILL BE AWAY FROM MY BLOG ALL WEEK. SO EVERYTHING IS A PRE PLANNED POST HEHEHEHEHEH I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THIS WEEK IT IS NOT ONLY A VACATION BUT COULD REALLY BE LIFE CHANGING!

Veterans Day

Gratitude is a wonderful thing, and one thing I have always been grateful for is the men and women who risk their lives serving our country. Thank you All!!




The Sack Lunches

I put my carry-on in the luggage
compartment and sat down in my
assigned seat. It was going to be a
long flight. 'I'm glad I have a
good book to read Perhaps I will get
a short nap,' I thought.

Just before take-off, a line of
soldiers came down the aisle and
filled all the vacant seats, totally
surrounding me.. I decided to
start a conversation.
'Where are you headed?' I asked
the soldier seated nearest to me.

'Petawawa. We'll be there for two
weeks for special training, and then
we're being deployed to Afghanistan

After flying for about an hour, an
announcement was made that sack
lunches were available for five
dollars. It would be several hours
before we reached the east, and I
quickly decided a lunch would help
pass the time..

As I reached for my wallet, I
overheard soldier ask his buddy if
he planned to buy lunch.
'No, that seems like a lot of money
for just a sack lunch.
Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks.
I'll wait till we get to base '

His friend agreed.

I looked around at the other
soldiers. None were buying lunch. I
walked to the back of the plane and
handed the flight attendant a
fifty dollar bill.
'Take a lunch to all those soldiers..'
She grabbed my arms and squeezed
tightly. Her eyes wet with tears, she
thanked me. 'My son was a
soldier in Iraq ; it's almost like y
ou are doing it for him.'

Picking up ten sacks, she headed up
the aisle to where the soldiers
were seated. She stopped at my seat
and asked, 'Which do you like
best - beef or chicken?'

'Chicken,' I replied, wondering why
she asked. She turned and went to
the front of plane, returning a
minute later with a dinner plate from
first class. 'This is your thanks..'

After we finished eating, I went
again to the back of the plane,
heading for the rest room.
A man stopped me. 'I saw what you
did. I want to be part of it.
Here, take this.' He handed me
twenty-five dollars.

Soon after I returned to my seat, I
saw the Flight Captain coming down
the aisle, looking at the aisle
numbers as he walked, I hoped he was
not looking for me, but noticed he
was looking at the numbers only on
my side of the plane.
When he got to my row he stopped,
smiled, held out his hand, an said,
'I want to shake your hand.'

Quickly unfastening my seatbelt I
stood and took the Captain's hand..
With a booming voice he said, 'I was
a soldier and I was a military pilot..
Once, someone bought me a lunch.
It was an act of kindness I
never forgot.' I was embarrassed
when applause was heard from all of
the passengers.

Later I walked to the front of the
plane so I could stretch my legs.
A man who was seated about six rows
in front of me reached out his
hand, wanting to shake mine. He left
another twenty-five dollars in my palm.

When we landed I gathered my
belongings and started to deplane.
Waiting just inside the airplane door
was a man who stopped me, put
something in my shirt pocket, turned,
and walked away without saying a
word. Another twenty-five dollars!

Upon entering the terminal, I saw the
soldiers gathering for their trip to the
base. I walked over to them
and handed them seventy-five dollars.
'It will take you some time to
reach the base. It will be about time
for a sandwich.
God Bless You.'

Ten young men left that flight
feeling the love and respect of their
fellow travelers. As I walked
briskly to my car, I whispered a prayer
for their safe return.
These soldiers were giving their all for
our country.. I could only
give them a couple of meals.

It seemed so little....

A veteran is someone who, at one
point in his life, wrote a blank check
made payable to 'The United States of
America ' for an amount of 'up to and
including My life.'

That is Honor, and there are way too
many people in this country who
no longer understand it.'

Month of Thanks!

I know we are already ten days into the month and I can hardly believe it!!! With Thanksgiving this month I really want to focus on Gratitude! It is one of the main parts of The Secret and a very important one, and actually its the easiest one to work with if you think about it. Look at it like this no matter how bad of a day you have had or how shitty you feel from the flu bug you caught or how pissed you are to be standing on the side of the road with a flat tire, you have something to be thankful for, your day was shitty but be thankful that you woke up and have the air to breath and tomorrow to do it all over again, you may have the flu but be thankful you dont have cancer, you might have a flat tire and have been waiting for roadside help for over an hour, but be grateful you have a car and roadside assistance and your not taking the bus and if you are taking the bus be thankful your not walking and if your walking be thankful you can walk!! See what I am saying NO MATTER WHAT we all have something to be thankful for everyday in every way! So In your blogs or in your thoughts, all this month make an extra effort to find extra things to be grateful for. And make mental notes how how it gets easier and easier, and how all the things you are thankful for seem to come more and more!

Hump Day

It has been a hard few days The Secret that i love so dearly has slipped away from me. I am not happy with myself over it. Time to get over the hump and love life again, I am so thankful for all my friends and family and everything that I have in my life and everything that I am going to have in my life.




People who live only for dessert, Kelly, very rarely enjoy the main course.

And sometimes a meal is like life.

Bon appétit,
The Universe

Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ®
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Coffee, tea, or me, Kelly?

LOVE

TGIF!!














Today I am thankful for LOVE! As a Gemini I Love to fall in love, I fall in love easily and with everything and everyone LOL But as a Gemini I also fall out of love too! Todays gratitude message is LOVE often LOVE strong LOVE everything!! Love makes you feel good and fuzzy inside!!! And who doesnt want to feel all fuzzy inside LOL