Monday isn't always bad...

Well my days and nights have been totally mixed up, I finally fell asleep at a decent hour last night and stayed awake when I woke up this morning after getting Gracie off to school. I need to try to keep my self motivated so I got my ass off the couch took my shower and made my dinner for the next two nights, and then got the kitchen all nice and cleaned and cleaned the bathroom and now it is only a few minutes before 1 in the afternoon and I am amazed at how much I actually did today, it feels pretty good. I think I might even crack a cold one lol After a few important phone calls I have to make I will be done for the day. Ohhhh what did I make you ask... Well for tonight's dinner I made stuffed cabbage which isn't one of the things I specialize in lol it usually falls apart and ends up being cabbage soup it's good but not quit like my moms or grams would have made. This time I did it a lil different and it didn't fall apart hopefully it taste as good as it looks. I also made a meat loaf for tommorow dinner but I think the kids will dip into it tonight, I don't think they will eat the stuffed cabbage. My meatloaf is actually a specialty, it's a simple recipe and I don't always do it exactly the same depending on the ingredients I have on hand but rather the ketchup I use Catalina dressing in the mix and BBQ sauce on top, it usually is very yummy. I pride myself on my cooking , I am not an expert chef there has been a few things I have botched lol but for the most part I don't get any complaints. My grandma was a god cook I learned a lot from her, but I learned most everything from my mother she has always been an amazing cook. She had a catering business for several years and was at high demand. I wished she would have had a chance to open a Resturant I know she wanted to but unfortunalty it never happened. Actually I think she learned a lot from my granny ( my dads mom) she had a lot of kids and always cooked big and cooked good as a lot of southern mommas do. There's a lot of good cooks in my family lol that's prob why we're all fat! All that good down home southern comfort food, which you know damn well most of it ain't healthy lol. My daughter is becoming a very good cook to, she likes spending time with my mom and they cook together, they are very close I'm so glad they have that bond. If you ask Grace she will tell you she's a better cook then me lol she says " anyone can cook but not everyone can make it taste good" . Which is a true statement lol so we always have a joke when one of us is cooking about wether it's gonna taste good or not . She's a comedian half the time and a lil snot the other half... Bipolar runs in the family too lol. Well that's all for today peeps Again I have to add I'm haveing trouble editing to excuse the typos

Day n night

I love my son and daughter. Grace is doing so good in school she has lots of friends and seems to actually like it now. I remember my freshman year in school. While I have never been a fan of school, I came home on the first day of kindergarten and too my mom " it's ok but I don't think I will go everyday.." Lol and I never did! But if I had to pick a time at school from what I can remember freshman years would be my favorite. Anyways back to to Grace... I hope she continues to enjoy school. I feel bad because she has had to change schools so many times, but then again she is a social butterfly and has friends all over the map! She is a smart cookie though and she is like me makes the best of any situation, she is smarter then me in many ways ( the lil shit) she has way more street smarts or world knowledge or whatever then I did when I was her age. I have always said she is an old soul. I know she will comin tie to flourish and really make herself something one day. My son Coty he is a whole different breed of kid! Well he's not a kid no more :( he is a grown ass man, he will be 19 this year... I was 19 when I had him omg I feel old! He has always been a good kid , very rarely would I really have to scold him for anything. Well some of the few things that do I have to look back and laugh. For example I woke up about 4 am one day, Coty was 4 or 5 and he was in the living room, I asked him what is he doing. I don't recall him answering but he was playing with our birds, one was o it flying around and the other was in his pocket.... Yup I said pocket lol. But he really was just playing he loves animals, he always had some random rotten or bug or whatever caught outside, when he was like 12 he would wake me up at the break of dawn on the weekends to let me know he was going snake hunting lol. We had a lil tiny piece of wooded area and pond by us and that's were he went . He is still an animal lover he currently has 4 snakes as pets . I say he's a different breed of kid because, he really is. 99 percent of the kids his age are a mess, partying, drugs, haveing baby's, already been arrested a few times, the list goes on. Coty has done none of that. He is so chill, he likes hanging at home. I'm not trying to make it sound like he is some sort of hermit or something, he likes going places as a family when we do stuff, I'm glad my son likes hanging with us. He has friends don't get me wrong, Coty is very likeable, people enjoy his company he doesn't give anyone any reason not to like him. Don't let his big teddy bear ass fool ya, I feel sorry for that first person that crosses the line with him, I can see him opening a can of whoop ass on someone like no other, he is as strong as a damn ox. I have always said how strong my husband is and Coty is way stronger! He might live at home till he's forty but that's ok lol like I said people like Coty he is fun to hang out with and actually when he gets going he is fucking hilarious he is always cracking us up over something. Well I love both my kids so much with all my heart on soul, I have no idea what I would do with out them!!!! *again a side note I'm haveing a hard time editing for some reason so excuse the typos...

Back for now

Wow it's been awhile, I actually forgott about my blog:( I don't kin what reminded me of it but here I am , don't know how often I will be back but I'm here for now lol. Well it's a new year thank goodness, 2013 totally sucked, I will not go into to much detail because there's no point, it won't change anything, so now lessons learned and moving on. My eyes were opened about a lot of fake people friends and family people I thought that would be by my side no matter what but when things got tough the fake got going, no matter I'm still me in all my greatness I don't need drama or people that think their lives are so great and problem free that they can't be bothered with my problems, not that I ever asked or ever will ask anything of anyone but true friends and family stick by you no matter what and wow did I really find out who those people are. Looking forward to this year and the potential for all good things. Over the last couple years I have greatly lost touch with practicing The Secrect and all the powers that positive thoughts hold and what happens to you when you hold on to negativity. I am slowly retraing my self to embrace only positive thoughts. It's so much easier said then done, especially when you dig yourself a hole as deep as I did lol it not only effected myself but my family, most importantly my kids, so if not for any other reason for them i am getting back on track!! I am determined to be happy I am happy I am healing 2014 is not just a new chapter of a book, it's a whole new damn book, get ready bitches lol I never read 50 shades of gray but it won't have anything on me lol wait was that book about sex ? Lol idk but I know it got everyone excited so I'm all about getting excitted ( not that way , get your mind out of the gutter ) ! Ok I'm off for now . There's some editing in this post that needs to be done but it's giving me a hard time so sorry for any confusion

Bathroom Reno Stage #2

Here is the bathroom stripped down bare, with only the new toilet sink and shower head's installed. It does have new drywall in place of the tile walls which is being prepared for paint.

Here is the old dirty tub that we can't afford to replace but it will be getting reglazed and look like new again.

This is the old light fixture, the new one is so much nicer cant wait to see it up.

Heres a few views of the walls ... I know not very excitting LOL

Heres the new floor which needs to be cleaned but it is pretty white and gray marble look, just peel and stick nothing fancy but we are not in a million dollar home here LOL and then the back of the door which will also be painted and just some other general pics of the areas which needed major damage control

Again I know not very excitting but the new toilet and sink, but I do love love love the new faucet.

Last but definatly not least, this is the one thing I will be enjoying the most besides the decor... The dual shower heads, one stationary and one hand held with the holder mounted low for me to be able to reach while sitting and the big rain type heads on them I can have either one on or both at the same time hell ya! Theres also a peek in there of the new chrome corner shower caddy the hubby installed.

Well thats it for now more to come soon....

Bathroom reno stage #1 part #2

The theme for my old bathroom was out houses which I still love the idea of but I wanted to switch things up. I am going to save my out house stuff incase we get another house with a 2nd bathroom (which is kinda in the plans in the next year or so). The new theme is just white, black & gray with just a little tiny, tiny pop of red. My husband and I have always loved Ansel Adams, but he is a bit out of our price range LOL I definalty wanted a nature feel to the room , we found a really cool big canvas print of a broken up wooden dock for the big wall, I am excitted to see it up. Then I found a cute little 5x7 black and white pic of an old claw tub with just a little red border, for little wall by light switch. For above the mirror,I bought a black and gray wall sticker that is a quote about being yourself and has a small owl and some branches,which was an awesome deal for only .99 cents! I bought a red towel to hang for my pop of red to go with the red in the border of the tub pic. The picture above I put together and had printed out 8x10 I think it is going to go on the wall between the big over the sink mirror and the over the toilet cabinet we are putting up. All the pics in the collage I took and most are from one of our favorite places to visit and even lived there once which is about three hundred miles north of where we live. Oh and the quote with the collage is from Shakespeare... luv him. I got the prettiest shower curtain it is black with white vines and leafs, black toilet seat cover, rugs and trash can. I found the handiest shower curtain liner, it is clear plastic and has mesh pockest of various sizes on the inside of it for storage, whoever thought that up is great, lol I get happy about lil things! The walls will be a medium gray, not to dark not to light. Which the tile that surrounds the tub and shower are gray bordered by thinner black tiles. The hardware is all new and white and chrome and we have a black and clear storage unit that has replaced the vanity now that we have a pedastol sink. We also got a new chrome light fixture which is very pretty. We even are doing the small stuff like, new towel bars, new toilet paper holder (which I still need to pick one up) and new switches and switch plates. In place of the old medicine cabinet we have a big mirror with a white frame, which was a freebie from the nieghbor that she was going to throw away and there is nothing wrong with it, thank you very much :) and we bought a white cabinet and shelf unit for storage to go above the toilet. I helped pick out the accessories and the hubby picked out the hardware, I think we did a good job and cant wait to see it all come together! I know this is a tease with so little pictures LOL but I'm working on building your anticipation LOL More pitures will come soon I promise......

Bathroom reno stage #1

We have started something excitting!!! Renovations on the house!!!! SO... in 20 years not alot has been done to the house other then a coat of paint and new carpet once. Approx. 7 years ago the airport came through the whole neighborhood and put in new windows, outer doors, insulated the attic, put in a new furnace and installed central air( which was awesome that they did all that!).And now that my mother moved out and my family and I have moved in the house. We have been waiting and planning and visioning things we wanted to get done all year and it has finally started!! WOOhooo! First we had some plumbers come in and take out the laundry room floor and fix and the effed up pipe, they were fast did a great job and did it for a fair price. Now we have started with the bathroom, then kitchen and then were not sure about the order but every room is getting updated. But we started with the smallest to give us that jumpstart. I am sure there will be some bumps but it nevertherless is excitting and a fun and posative change! Thank goodness I have a handyman husband he's a jack of all trades master off nothing, lol But no seriously I am very thankful and I give him big props because not only is he mostly working on it by himself, with some help from a few very good friends, but he also has me to tend to recovering from surgery and working other side jobs to keep money in our pockets. And I am also so thankful I have two very well adjusted, extremely helpful and patient children, we love them to death!! We are doing it as a family and that is exactly how it should be, LOVE IT!!! I seriously plan on blogging through the whole thing, but I can not make any promises :(But so far i am off to a good start and at the moment determoned and enthused so here we go........ Bathroom demo... messy and probally the funnest part LOL..

Here is a general look of the before. I have always hated the wall paper and border. They were the furthest thing from matching or realted in any type of a theme.

The uglier wallpaper under the ugly wallpaper lmao

Wall behind toilet and medicine cabinet removed...

That aweful wallpaper coming down Thank goodness..

Wall across from toilet and sink with ugly tile wall gone gone gone...

Just plain old yucko, old toilet, old sink and vanity, mix matched uneven bad peel n stick floor , GOODBYE!

I know the picture is poor quality it was off a phone but here is a preview of the new toilet!!

Hubby getting new sink ready!!

Happy Tears

I have shed alot of tears over the last couple months over various things that may have been effecting me in one way or another. i am not usually a cry baby ever but the last few months it seemed as thow the tears came easily. Crying doesnt always have to be a bad thing. Today I have shed some tears, but not over anything that is effecting me in anything way other then love. They were tears of joy; I am surrounded by amazing people. My family.... I have a husband that has such a good heart he is helping a complete stranger have just a little bit of an easier life this winter. Him and I have had our differance and i wanna punch his lights out sometimes but he is a good man and has so much love to give. I have a 17 year old son that is still his mommas boy, he helps take care of me and waits on me hand and foot if he needs to , with no complaints, most 17 year olds only give a shit about their friends and partying. I have a 13 year old daughter that is more mature and responsable then most 30 year olds I know, she is your typical girly girl with her hair and make up and clothes and shoes and the mall OMG lol But thats one of the reasons I adore her. She like her father has a heart of gold and would bend over backwords for anyone, also like her brother she helps to take care of her momma and has become a very good cook in the process. I will brag all day about my family and I am sure complain too LOL I have a group of Ya -Ya's (aka friends) that are the most Loving, understanding, and giving people I have ever known. Then I have all these extended family members and friends that I dont get to see very often, but I know they are out there and the love is there no matter how near or far away. What more could I ask for. Everyday shoukd bring a new reason to be happy and so happy that it can bring a tear to your eye Look for it, it is there! Reminds me of a quote by a very wise man. Prof. A. Dumbledore, “ happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”