Back for now

Wow it's been awhile, I actually forgott about my blog:( I don't kin what reminded me of it but here I am , don't know how often I will be back but I'm here for now lol. Well it's a new year thank goodness, 2013 totally sucked, I will not go into to much detail because there's no point, it won't change anything, so now lessons learned and moving on. My eyes were opened about a lot of fake people friends and family people I thought that would be by my side no matter what but when things got tough the fake got going, no matter I'm still me in all my greatness I don't need drama or people that think their lives are so great and problem free that they can't be bothered with my problems, not that I ever asked or ever will ask anything of anyone but true friends and family stick by you no matter what and wow did I really find out who those people are. Looking forward to this year and the potential for all good things. Over the last couple years I have greatly lost touch with practicing The Secrect and all the powers that positive thoughts hold and what happens to you when you hold on to negativity. I am slowly retraing my self to embrace only positive thoughts. It's so much easier said then done, especially when you dig yourself a hole as deep as I did lol it not only effected myself but my family, most importantly my kids, so if not for any other reason for them i am getting back on track!! I am determined to be happy I am happy I am healing 2014 is not just a new chapter of a book, it's a whole new damn book, get ready bitches lol I never read 50 shades of gray but it won't have anything on me lol wait was that book about sex ? Lol idk but I know it got everyone excited so I'm all about getting excitted ( not that way , get your mind out of the gutter ) ! Ok I'm off for now . There's some editing in this post that needs to be done but it's giving me a hard time so sorry for any confusion

Bathroom Reno Stage #2

Here is the bathroom stripped down bare, with only the new toilet sink and shower head's installed. It does have new drywall in place of the tile walls which is being prepared for paint.

Here is the old dirty tub that we can't afford to replace but it will be getting reglazed and look like new again.

This is the old light fixture, the new one is so much nicer cant wait to see it up.

Heres a few views of the walls ... I know not very excitting LOL

Heres the new floor which needs to be cleaned but it is pretty white and gray marble look, just peel and stick nothing fancy but we are not in a million dollar home here LOL and then the back of the door which will also be painted and just some other general pics of the areas which needed major damage control

Again I know not very excitting but the new toilet and sink, but I do love love love the new faucet.

Last but definatly not least, this is the one thing I will be enjoying the most besides the decor... The dual shower heads, one stationary and one hand held with the holder mounted low for me to be able to reach while sitting and the big rain type heads on them I can have either one on or both at the same time hell ya! Theres also a peek in there of the new chrome corner shower caddy the hubby installed.

Well thats it for now more to come soon....

Bathroom reno stage #1 part #2

The theme for my old bathroom was out houses which I still love the idea of but I wanted to switch things up. I am going to save my out house stuff incase we get another house with a 2nd bathroom (which is kinda in the plans in the next year or so). The new theme is just white, black & gray with just a little tiny, tiny pop of red. My husband and I have always loved Ansel Adams, but he is a bit out of our price range LOL I definalty wanted a nature feel to the room , we found a really cool big canvas print of a broken up wooden dock for the big wall, I am excitted to see it up. Then I found a cute little 5x7 black and white pic of an old claw tub with just a little red border, for little wall by light switch. For above the mirror,I bought a black and gray wall sticker that is a quote about being yourself and has a small owl and some branches,which was an awesome deal for only .99 cents! I bought a red towel to hang for my pop of red to go with the red in the border of the tub pic. The picture above I put together and had printed out 8x10 I think it is going to go on the wall between the big over the sink mirror and the over the toilet cabinet we are putting up. All the pics in the collage I took and most are from one of our favorite places to visit and even lived there once which is about three hundred miles north of where we live. Oh and the quote with the collage is from Shakespeare... luv him. I got the prettiest shower curtain it is black with white vines and leafs, black toilet seat cover, rugs and trash can. I found the handiest shower curtain liner, it is clear plastic and has mesh pockest of various sizes on the inside of it for storage, whoever thought that up is great, lol I get happy about lil things! The walls will be a medium gray, not to dark not to light. Which the tile that surrounds the tub and shower are gray bordered by thinner black tiles. The hardware is all new and white and chrome and we have a black and clear storage unit that has replaced the vanity now that we have a pedastol sink. We also got a new chrome light fixture which is very pretty. We even are doing the small stuff like, new towel bars, new toilet paper holder (which I still need to pick one up) and new switches and switch plates. In place of the old medicine cabinet we have a big mirror with a white frame, which was a freebie from the nieghbor that she was going to throw away and there is nothing wrong with it, thank you very much :) and we bought a white cabinet and shelf unit for storage to go above the toilet. I helped pick out the accessories and the hubby picked out the hardware, I think we did a good job and cant wait to see it all come together! I know this is a tease with so little pictures LOL but I'm working on building your anticipation LOL More pitures will come soon I promise......

Bathroom reno stage #1

We have started something excitting!!! Renovations on the house!!!! SO... in 20 years not alot has been done to the house other then a coat of paint and new carpet once. Approx. 7 years ago the airport came through the whole neighborhood and put in new windows, outer doors, insulated the attic, put in a new furnace and installed central air( which was awesome that they did all that!).And now that my mother moved out and my family and I have moved in the house. We have been waiting and planning and visioning things we wanted to get done all year and it has finally started!! WOOhooo! First we had some plumbers come in and take out the laundry room floor and fix and the effed up pipe, they were fast did a great job and did it for a fair price. Now we have started with the bathroom, then kitchen and then were not sure about the order but every room is getting updated. But we started with the smallest to give us that jumpstart. I am sure there will be some bumps but it nevertherless is excitting and a fun and posative change! Thank goodness I have a handyman husband he's a jack of all trades master off nothing, lol But no seriously I am very thankful and I give him big props because not only is he mostly working on it by himself, with some help from a few very good friends, but he also has me to tend to recovering from surgery and working other side jobs to keep money in our pockets. And I am also so thankful I have two very well adjusted, extremely helpful and patient children, we love them to death!! We are doing it as a family and that is exactly how it should be, LOVE IT!!! I seriously plan on blogging through the whole thing, but I can not make any promises :(But so far i am off to a good start and at the moment determoned and enthused so here we go........ Bathroom demo... messy and probally the funnest part LOL..

Here is a general look of the before. I have always hated the wall paper and border. They were the furthest thing from matching or realted in any type of a theme.

The uglier wallpaper under the ugly wallpaper lmao

Wall behind toilet and medicine cabinet removed...

That aweful wallpaper coming down Thank goodness..

Wall across from toilet and sink with ugly tile wall gone gone gone...

Just plain old yucko, old toilet, old sink and vanity, mix matched uneven bad peel n stick floor , GOODBYE!

I know the picture is poor quality it was off a phone but here is a preview of the new toilet!!

Hubby getting new sink ready!!

Happy Tears

I have shed alot of tears over the last couple months over various things that may have been effecting me in one way or another. i am not usually a cry baby ever but the last few months it seemed as thow the tears came easily. Crying doesnt always have to be a bad thing. Today I have shed some tears, but not over anything that is effecting me in anything way other then love. They were tears of joy; I am surrounded by amazing people. My family.... I have a husband that has such a good heart he is helping a complete stranger have just a little bit of an easier life this winter. Him and I have had our differance and i wanna punch his lights out sometimes but he is a good man and has so much love to give. I have a 17 year old son that is still his mommas boy, he helps take care of me and waits on me hand and foot if he needs to , with no complaints, most 17 year olds only give a shit about their friends and partying. I have a 13 year old daughter that is more mature and responsable then most 30 year olds I know, she is your typical girly girl with her hair and make up and clothes and shoes and the mall OMG lol But thats one of the reasons I adore her. She like her father has a heart of gold and would bend over backwords for anyone, also like her brother she helps to take care of her momma and has become a very good cook in the process. I will brag all day about my family and I am sure complain too LOL I have a group of Ya -Ya's (aka friends) that are the most Loving, understanding, and giving people I have ever known. Then I have all these extended family members and friends that I dont get to see very often, but I know they are out there and the love is there no matter how near or far away. What more could I ask for. Everyday shoukd bring a new reason to be happy and so happy that it can bring a tear to your eye Look for it, it is there! Reminds me of a quote by a very wise man. Prof. A. Dumbledore, “ happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”

Gracie

My daughter has been such a gift to me and I couldn't be more thankful. When I say gift I really mean it, she was born just a couple weeks after I lost my grandmother so I feel like my gramma sent this wonderful girl to me to help try and fill a void in my heart after she left this world. And my heart has been overflowing ever since. Before Grace came into this world she was already giving me a run for my money! At the later stages of  my pregnancy it became apparent that I had gestational diabetes. And via ultra sounds she seems to be growing very well. In the last month she was to big to tell how big she actually was anymore LOL! I was scheduled for a c section on a Monday morning. The Friday before that Grace decided she was not waiting those couple days and I was in labor. We went to the hospital about 6 and after all the prepping I was in the O.R. just after midnight. My hubby, her dad was with me and sat right by my head hold the puke bucket... poor guy lol. After what seemed like forever the Dr announces its a girl (which we already knew) and they cleaned her up and bundle her up and brought her to me. I couldn't hold her yet because I was still strapped down to the table but daddy held her and put her to my face so I could kiss her. she was a big baby almost 13 pounds!! One of the Drs even said "hurry up and weigh her, I gotta see this" and another Dr said " she was born with a spoon in her mouth". The nurses and every other person in the hospital couldn't get over her. She was so adorable. Came out bright eyed and a head full of black hair. She was taken to the nursery and I was taken to recover in my room. They had to run some extra test beyond the normal ones. She had apparently had a bowl movement while she was still in me, which can be dangerous if she ingested any of it. She was fine perfectly healthy. My mom and hubby left after we were settled in for what was left of the night. The next couple days we spent in the hospital and had visitors from family and hospital staff that had to come see this big baby they had heard all about.

Big brother came up and he was shy as usual and I dont think he knew what to think of her. Daddys friend Eric drove us home from the hospital. She was a good baby, very rarely got sick, and the 'terriable twos' wasnt terrible at all. She developed fast, never liked baby food, she wanted the real thing! She gave up the bottle and started walking before she turned a year old. One thing that stuck with her for a looooong time was her binky. I gave her one right away when she was born because she was sucking on her hands and I didnt want her to become a thumb sucker thinking it would be easier to break her of the binky then the thumb. Well she was really attached to that binky, I should have bought stock in binkys we went through so many. We always had to have a few back ups, god forbid we loose one! The binky lasted till she was almost 7! Yeah it got to the point were I would tell her 'if you want it you keep track of it' and she would too! She always made sure I had one in my purse when we went somewhere and even started to get embarrassed by it and would only have it when no one was around. Then one day after me suggesting for at least a year, she just decided she was done with it. So I put the last one in my jewelery box and there is were it still sits.

Grace is going to be 13 years old at the end of this month. And it seems like yesterday that she was born. I cant believe how time flys! She is still a good kid! She has an old soul. She gets along great with adults and is very mature for her age, she always has been. But she is not mature in a bad way like some of these 13 year olds are today out there. She is not 'fast'. She is not trying to grow up and act like an idiot and boy crazy and make up crazy and party crazy, ugh I dont know what I would do if she acted like a typical teenager. She has a very good head on her shoulders and I am so proud of the lil lady she is becoming.

Grace is a clothes and shoes alcoholic. She loves the mall and shopping! She has a great sense of style. Some styles dad doesnt like lol but she doesnt try to get away with anything over the top, and is respectful of his wishes. Grace is a daddys girl, she always has been.

I dont mind at all. I am happy they have the bond they do. Her and I also have a great bond, I love her dearly but we do but heads sometimes. Sometimes I wish she would just crawl up in my lap twirl my hair, cuddle and fall asleep like when she was little. I will always hold on to and cherish the memories of her like that. I look forward to the great memories that will come!

July

July: The heart of summer! Americas birthday! It is also 2 of the most important females in my life birthdays month; my mother & my daughter. It is also a bitter month as a reminder of when I lost my grandmother. This month in my blog I will feature all 3 of the above mentioned. They all have effected my life in such a way I dont know what i would do with out them. Although my gramma is on the other side she is still with me and the things she taught me while here still are certainly still with me! America the beutiful and we sure know how to celebrate it! Fireworks have seemily been none stop since before the 1st of the month and will continue for the next couple weeks. My poor pregnant dog is a nervous wreck which I am sure is not good for her in her condition. But we will comfort her as much as possiable. My cat I have to laugh at... He is 7 years old and has heard fireworks and storms ect several times. SO I dont understand while all the sudden while there are fireworks going on he is doing an army crawl from one room to the next like he is under attack! I feel bad that he is scared but at the same time its hillarious to watch him. My mother & daughter -

I hope everyone enjoys there summer!!